Sometimes we're all just a little bit crazy

For someone who prides themselves on thinking like a boy, I do excessively dumb girl-like things. You know, because I am one. Like, being needy or over-texting or running conversations (or non-conversations) through my brain over and over again until they're nothing but crazy sounds.

The funny thing is, I have told myself many times to change, to not do things that I know are stupid or that might get me hurt or, hey, are just plain crazy. But you know how trying to change other people never gets you anywhere? Trying to change yourself can be just as difficult. We all have deeply embedded habits and tendencies and trying to make yourself, well, less nuts, is often very difficult. It takes time and tripping over yourself and screwing up until you figure it out for yourself, not because other people tell you what you should or shouldn't do.

This probably sounds like a random rant, but truth is there are certain things that have bothered me for a very long time and that have gotten worse rather than better in the last year or so. As much as I want to fix some of the dumb things in my brain and stuff I've said to others, I'm just making things worse. As Leah made the valid point of: "I think you have a tendency to try to fix things, and that's where you get in trouble."

True. So the question is - how do you fix something you can't control? Trying to change your personality is like, well, trying to change your boyfriend. It ain't never gonna happen, honey. Move on to the next boy if this one isn't working. But I can't move on from my brain. In conclusion, I may pretend I can think like a boy, but clearly I do not about many, many things. And that just sucks sometimes.